Updated: Mar 31, 2020
Conviction from God is a good thing.
In fact, it's a necessary thing.
If God didn't prick our hearts, we'd remain in a complacent state.
We'd never change.
God wants us to be hungry for more of Him and one of the ways He initiates that is by agitating us.
His conviction will cause us to be dissatisfied with where we are until we do something about it.
Have you ever felt that way?
Have you ever felt so tired about where you are with Him?
Have you recently felt the hunger for more stirring inside of you?
For the past two weeks, I have felt so convicted to know Jesus more.
I can't help but to look at His life and see the gap between His example and mine.
I'm beginning to feel desperate.
It's not that I feel like a failure in anyway.
It's just that I'm beginning to see the discrepancy between what's available and what I'm currently walking in.
Just this morning, I heard Jesus' familiar words form John 14:12 echo within me where He says, "Truly, truly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do, he will do also; and greater works than these he will do; because I go to the Father.
And I felt conviction greater still.
Oh how I am finding myself yearning to see such things manifest in my life.
Oh how I am growing tired of seeing a trickle when I could be experiencing a river.
And, to be frank, I am so tired of seeing some people healed and others not receiving what Jesus paid for.
I want more.
That's where I am.
I'm longing for more.
I need Him.
He is the answer and will always be the answer.
God, forgive us for our complacency!
Forgive us for becoming ok with where we are!
Forgive us for knowing what's possible and for not continuing to pursue it until it's ours.
Forgive us for settling for the knowledge of something rather than the experience of something.
Forgive us for being experts in things we don't always manifest.
Forgive us for not seeking after deeper depths of the baptism in the Holy Spirit.
Forgive us for tolerating the works of the devil when we should be destroying them.
Forgive us for not praying and fasting like we should.
Forgive us for talking about the wonderful things you did in our past without being spurred on to experience the greater depths that are in You in our future.
Please, make us hungry again.
Make us thirsty again.
Snap us out of our sleep.
We need it.
I will never grow tired of the confirmations and reaffirmations of God.
Just today, I was reading a book on the Holy Spirit and the chapter I read just moments ago was called "The More of God."
I thought to myself, "Isn't this fitting for where I am and what I'm experiencing?"
The chapter did not disappoint.
It only served to fan into flame what God is doing.
Towards the end of the chapter, the author writes, "God wants us to live in a constant baptism in the Holy Spirit."
As soon as I finished reading that sentence, I felt the Lord.
This is what I need.
This is what I want.
I want a deeper baptism in the Holy Spirit.
I want an experience with God that decimates every cobweb and reawakens me to who Jesus is and what's possible to walk in by the Holy Spirit.
I want the power of God to shake me to my core and leave me in awe and wonder of Him.
I want the anointing of God to rest so strongly upon me that when I go and pray for a cold to leave my children, it leaves!
I want to walk in the constant consciousness of God and be able to demonstrate His kingdom.
I want to carry Him.
I want to know Him.
And I get the distinct feeling that I'm not alone...
Get ready for God to shake in your life what can be shaken to reawakened a zealous desire for more.
- Brian Connolly, Faith Like Birds Ministries